Sober Days / 18 Holes While It All Burns Down
- PaulMauled
- May 12
- 2 min read
"You only seem to love me, on the wrong side of bi-polar, 'I miss you's' when you're wasted, kiss me I can taste it all."
This song is about reflection. I never understood sobriety until the last three weeks, I'd cut back to try and lead by example for people who have real substance abuse problems, but I'd always go back. It was tied to my being.
I don't need to self medicate, I need to feel like my connective tissue is trying to murder me. I'm in ridiculous arthritic pain all the time now, like a Bond villain, but I feel so clear headed. My blood pressure is definitely way lower. I'm getting my beach body back slowly but surely. It definitely makes falling out of love easier because sober me has standards. I'm slowly rebuilding my dignity.
If I roasted you while I was in a slur and you got upset, wait until I do it sober. You're gonna wish I was a drunk again. Everyone keeps telling me "You're inspiring me, you're inspiring me" but sometimes I think it's just something they say to make me or themselves feel better while they get shit hammered. The worst painful sober days aren't as bad as my booziest days.
"They say we’re prospering — that assessment’s been dispelled, bedazzled third-world country rocking a Gucci belt"
I always love being in the orbit of college age people, mostly for the vernacular, but also for the fashion tips. The most intelligent / fashionable one I know hit me with "we've always been a third world country with a Gucci belt" to which I replied "I'm stealing that."
Stole it, bedazzled it, wrote an entire diatribe around it. I never get too political, I write love songs, but when things get ugly I always have feelings about it. I was due to try and go full Woody Guthrie.
I hit the studio hard as hell this weekend, Saturday and Sunday, back to back. These two are just the tip of the iceberg... we tracked drums for five. We've got four almost ready for release. We're going to start dropping them every three weeks. They say six weeks is good for the algo, but we work too fast for that.
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