I'm Only Going To Say This Once
- PaulMauled
- 6 hours ago
- 2 min read
"If you want something done right, do it yourself"
I'm taking on bass duties in Bamberdost, Mad Jack and I mutually agreed to part ways. At the end of the day I felt things were lacking. I was very frustrated for a long time. I have a hard time finding the metaphor. He changed my life for the better, but at the end of the day the songs just weren't there.
It's enraging when I'm told "We need to be more musical" but he can't articulate what that means, and the songs just weren't there. In an attempt to be more musical I asked for us to stop punching above our weight, play the roots, less is more, lets figure out how to make it more musical.
That was too much to ask. I took it personally and definitely over reacted... after I asked nicely 30 times over about six months and nothing changed, I crashed out like Gary Oldman in The Professional, said some stuff I shouldn't have said. I really like accountability, all around, so I apologized, I feel as much at peace as I feel bad about what I said. These songs are my legacy, we need to play them right. For me, for my brother.
I have to work so much harder to do this disabled at 40, got a laundry list of ailments, Booze was a big help for twenty years. I was told how I'm an embarassment because I'm in a slur, I don't dress the part, we should run the band like a business. I took every single criticism to heart and changed my entire life because I thought it would make the band better. The band is definitely better. My life? Way worse, I'm sore as fuck and playing guitar feels like twice as much work.
Still, the songs just weren't there. I had to stop playing guitar and that's when the shit really hit the fan. If I'm going to keep doing this, everyone around me needs to know the material.
Anyway I'm tired of being asked and I don't like rumors. All love for Mad Jack, he changed my life immeasurably, unfortunately we were unable to continue like this.
Anyone who has a problem can get in line to blow me. It's a long line, there's probably a wait. You better bring a snack.
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