Nic Fit.

I am in hell climbing up the walls right now. It's been over 24 hours since I had nicotine and I'm feeling better, but still hostile.

Whenever anyone talks to me, all I hear is helplessness and complaining. Everytime someone speaks to me, this is the only response I can think to muster. I can't believe not having nicotine gives me a tremble. Quitting booze or anything else in the past has been easier.

I'm definitely at a crossroads. I can't really tolerate people without nicotine. I don't feel like writing or performing music anymore. Friend asked me to shoot "content" with them. It might be advantageous for me. I have a giant dick and everyones already seen it so who cares?

The world is pretty terrible through sober eyes. I'm not getting the chemicals in my brain that I need. My car decided to spontaneously combust. I'm in a bad place. It feels really good to not care. It feels really good to let go.